A Disaster Waiting to Happen

Testimony by Mary S

I did not have the COVID trial drug as every cell in my body told me from day 1 that it was a disaster waiting to happen. I knew people had already been programmed to believe that vaccinations are good and that all they needed was to be vaccinated. People were driven by fear of the virus and from the beginning were hanging out waiting for a vaccine. They were so vulnerable to the government’s promises (aka lies) and didn’t see how they could take responsibility for their own health.

I have been interested in science my whole life and I know our bodies are designed to function when they are nurtured with the right foods, sunshine, water, physical activity and a happy supportive environment. As children we need our parents to protect, love, nurture, guide, inform and prepare us to think for ourselves as we go out into the world. The last few years have created a situation where parents have struggled to parent and children are coming out into the world unequipped to deal with day-to-day living. Many families are facing damage from the “vaccine”.

As we have seen in the past, when the powers-that-be have ill-intent, people fall prey to manipulation, dishonesty, and fear for their well-being and even their lives. New Zealanders were bombarded daily by government news bytes which fed into their fears and created confusion. There was only one thing to do -stay locked up until we were all vaccinated. And don’t listen to the naysayers. What sickened me most were the bribes and the telethon. There was no shame (unless you were an antivaxxer!) One of the first phrases that was touted was “we all have to do our bit” which was wear your mask and get vaccinated as soon as it was available. 

I have PTSD from childhood and keeping quiet about my decision to avoid people’s anger and disapproval re-traumatised me. I attempted to talk to those close to me and found those who were in agreement, and those who were hanging out for the Golden Ticket that would “save” them. I sought counselling once I was allowed out in public again and tried to explain to my counsellor that one of my issues was how triggered I was by the threat of other people thinking they could choose what should be done to my body with no concern about how it affected me. She took that to mean I wanted to debate whether being vaccinated was a good idea and that I was one more disinformed “antivaxxer”. It took one whole session to even explain how it affected me, not whether I made the right choice. I knew we were all being lied to and I needed to make my own decision without becoming an outcast. Just as I couldn’t speak up as a child, I couldn’t speak up now. I didn’t have the right words to express how I felt.

The word “antivaxer” is a dirty word that was used by politicians to control the population. People’s decision to “not vaccinate” was marketed to the population as a bunch of ignorant, uneducated hippies who were going to infect the whole population. An example of this occurred well after the mandates were over and we were all back to our regular lives. I was sitting with a group of volunteers when someone spoke about an acquaintance who was spreading disinformation. A woman stood up and spat out a comment about antivaxers. What really upset me was the look of absolute disgust on her face. I said” I was not vaccinated”. She stopped in her tracks and stared at me in silence as she collected her thoughts. She then said “You will give us covid!” I simply replied, “You can only get covid from someone who has covid.” and left it at that.

I am not an “antivaxxer” and we need to stop using that term. The governments around the world used it to control and discredit anyone who challenged them. I carefully considered what I was going to do to keep myself safe in relation to covid and whether it was good idea to take the cure the government offered. I researched and still decided it was not worth it.

I mourn the effects of the so-called “vaccination”. It has caused pain and suffering instead of delivering what they promised. I mourn the effect it has had on my family including my grandchildren and their children. I feel pain every time one of my friends and acquaintances say they have just had another booster. I feel helpless as I watch one important person in my life deal with ill health with multiple doctors arguing about how they should treat him.

I distrust my doctor as they must have been vaccinated to have kept their job. I want to ask their reasoning in the hopes that they would say they had doubts. My doctor laughed at me the other day when I told her I was going to discontinue a drug I was on. She didn’t ask why or whether I was going to manage my condition in some other way. She disagreed when I mentioned side effects. I have never had a doctor go through side effects, or suitability for a specific drug. I feel so unheard.

I wake up every morning and feel grateful that I am not worrying about my health because of a dangerous trial drug. It lifts my spirit. I am not sure I could have survived being vaccinated psychologically.